Simple thing

Currently working on night shift duty.

Ada satu admission masuk.

Male, 47 years.

Hypertension urgency with acute stroke.

Facial asymmetry. Slurred speech.

BP high. Patient on iv infusion GTN 6mcg commence 1.8mls/hour.

Luckly, CT BRAIN no ICB.

Insert ryle tube size 14, due to difficulty in swollowing. 1st attempt failed, until 4th attempt failed. My senior, just 1st attempt, successful.

Insert iv brannula kaler pink, 1st attempt my SRN Nurain, successful. Perform blood taking. Done. But messy gila. Darah terabur. But, successful. Lama gila tak insert brannula. #Applause

Just share my experience. Don't know lately rasa sangat murung, stress. SANGAT.

I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK, TO SHARE EVERY SINGLE THING.

Even makan apa pun rasa nak cerita. Tapi..

Ntahh. Bila nak share simple thing, rasa macam, 'eleh, benda kecik pun nak bagitahu'

Rasa macam, membazir. Manja.

Benda kecik nak simpan, benda besar nak pendam. End up, senang nangis. Even tengok Korea, tapi tak faham, just based on subtitles, pun nangis. Don't know why, maybe, letak kan diri dalam diri watak tu. Tu yang senang nangis..

Lately ini, banyak terasa, even BENDA KECIK.

SEBAB DAH BIASA KAN "TAKPE, SOKAY,"

Sedih kan.

Typing pun bergenang air mata. Then mata dekat machine vital sign, mengeluh, persoalkan, kenapa BP patient tak turun turun, dah bagi tab, dengan ada infusion GTN, tapi SBP still more 160mmHg. Sadis.

Lega sikit. Even sikit. Tapi atleast lega.

You know, I try to unfriend, friend dekat my ig. Don't why. Hati ini, selalu nak dengki dengan orang lain. Jahat kan. Jahat gila.

Dah lahh follower tak ramai 200++ tapi still tak nak kawan dengan ramai orang, hati still tak terbuka lagi.

Nak jauh kan hati ini dari perasaan Benci and dengki kat orang lain, I need to unfriend and unmuted. Sometimes, ig story pun kena hide dengan orang lain. Tak nak bagi orang lain kecik hati.

Okay, I think, I am done. Nak tengok patient tu, dah lahh NPU since admission.

Kepada siapa yang bertuah, dapat baca entry and my blog ini, terima kasih.

Terima kasih kerana gigih Dan setia tunggu untuk setiap kali entry Di publish kan.

Dan, I do not want to know who you are. Cukup, Hanya doakan nurain, untuk tabah.

Sincerely, your fav nurse.